Go shawty, it's your birthday.

last night was a whole crazy drunk swimming in the pool thing at 4am. we did so many things, talked and laughed so much and did so much nonsense that no one should ever know exactly what. there're many many photos but it's like the c4 naked run photos, they should never ever see the light of day. I just hope the kids swimming in the pool today don't get drunk or something.

anyhoo, amidst of all the 'it's my 21st birthday, I shall be treated like a queen' thing, is the sudden realisation that it's because I'm already 21, there's no such thing as being treated like a queen anymore. just work and jobs and a kazillion things that will not go your way and you have to accept it. responsibility and independence. great, I grew up within a day. It's a birthday when I actually feel myself getting older. and after a few days of lying to myself thats its my sweet 16th, Denise woke me up by pointing out that i should be glad I'm not 16 because now we're much more stable and sure of ourselves, not some confused teenager running around following the crowd. so yes, thank god i'm not one of those little girls anymore.

and don't you sometimes get the feeling that some friends you meet are like small little gems. each one unique, special, and shiny in their own little way. I must say thank god I met these people! :)

something I just realised a couple hours ago, I can watch porn legally now. HAHA.