i woke up crying this morning. its so creepy. i was dreaming that i did something very wrong and i was crying like hell and when i woke up i continued crying. but as soon as i got up from my bed, i was wondering why the hell i was crying or did i really cry even after i woke up?

walked in the damn rain today on purpose. Reminds me of the last time i did long distance no-hurry walking in the rain with huiyi. hai...that was soo long ago.

listening to jamie yeo talking about william hung on radio. hate william hung now. he has become a commercialised americanised piece of useless shit.

im gonna mug all the way in may and then have intensive study camp at my cousin's house which is two bus stops to tj so i can go anytime and within walking distance to the beach which makes it convenient to drown myself whenever i feel the need to. oh yeah. hope i'm welcomed.

fine fine i post.

happi belated birthday to the twins firstly. hate it when more than one person has the birthday on the same day. no time to recover my finances.

math test sucked.
econs test sucked.
need i say more?

my gosh, science students dont know what detrimental means. they ought to be shot man.

Skipped swimming today. faked red sea. haha.

he's everywhere. i cant get him out. his face at every bloody corner of the school.

Amir just reminded me i was in choir in pri school. Then i was in choir in sec school. Why couldn't i continue in JC? seriously i wonder was i tt bad during the auditions.

watched bowling for columbine during GP. Hate the Americans.

shall refrain from strangling za. shall refrain from strangling za. must control...

its so tiring to stay angry at someone. i give up. whatever.

Are we growing apart? i really hope not. i have less things to say to her now. is there anything i can do? really love her as a friend.seldom feel like that abt ppl. does she feel the same? muz hold on.

gosh i sound like a lesbian.for the record, i'm not.

Dance practise was good!
Mr Zaki was good!
Elaine was good!
The year twos were good!

i just found out there's really a difference between art students and science students. Some nerdy science student form 10/04 don't know what is the meaning of detrimental. he asked his fellow classmate. She doesn't know either.

Happy birthday to kl and km!!!!!

yay i will post more often now that the toopid thing is fixed.

According to nina, today is 20/04 so its like a special day. yeah...

Well, something big did happen today. the Nicoll Highway collapsed! Nothing serious actually but nothing big ever happens in Singapore anyway. haha, the newscaster was saying that they are trying to find out if it is the work of terrorists. Yeah right. Terrorists have better things to do and better places to bomb. Bombing Singapore is a waste of their resources.

hahahahahahahahahahahaha.
I finally fixed this damn thing but not without much scolding from my brother. haha. Im really a computer idiot.

k, finally, time for the actual post.

how do you measure love?
it is measured by the size of the void it leaves behind.

- Princess Moon, Blueprint

er, lets start with Sports Day. It sucked at first. I was stoned. Nina was quiet. Fad and Cass were ignoring me. Clara was er, ignoring me as well actually. Cheerleading, the only thing i look forward to at every sports day. Alpha and Beta cheers were great but soo Bring It On. No orginality. My sec sch cheerleading was waayy better. after cheers i decided i couldnt take it anymore and went to look for nina. Found Louisa and Yvonne instead. Chatted with them while waiting for nina to appear. Decided to run for house com. Logistics man!! Dragged nina to lemonade booth and FINALLY found him there. anyway had a nice crappy long chat with lousia and nina after that. Gamma house wins!!!yay... at the end of it all, we had to sing the school song. haha...it was eventful and hilarious. i couldn't even finish singing the whole song. least it ended well. kept thinking of him that night.

Saturday

Was hyped up about the whole 7 hours of dance that i was going to go through at first. stoned through chem lec. laughed through bio lec, which i was not supposed to be at in the first place. found out from Amir that the dance practice in the morning was cancelled. so i had nothing to do until the afternoon practice. went for leo ( im not in leo). Cass wanted me lunch with her and her tkgs friend whom i dont know.

I was really pissed the whole day. After sitting alone in the canteen for a while i wanted to cry. Screwed up my dance practice. the only good thing that happened in school that day was that there was this really nice dance senior, Stacy, who was helping me. She actually remembered my name from last practice.

went out with secondary school friends at night to celebrate someone's birthday. My friend from nyjc was talking about some super cute guy in her school called Deddy. Oh great, he used to be from tj for 1st 3 months. i used to watched him. he used to be my eye-candy. now she gets to watch him. haha.

Sunday

met up with pw today at Jamie's house. finally bonded with the group. we were talking about our love lives and crapping all the way... think we should try to understand za more. Apparantly he started seeing an external counsellor because of us. Oops.