ZOMG CRAMPSSSSSSS.

reminds me, oli is the first person whom I ever knew to be able to pronounce zomg.
but anyway, I'm going to wallow in my pain on my bed now. goodbye cruel world!

so tired, so tortured.

boring sunday, I'm just surfing around the net... then i saw this.

-----Email Message-----
Subject: Hope

A few months ago I saw a postcard saying "If you're waiting for a sign, this is it. Do it. It will be amazing."

Well I did it...and while I am the most vulnerable I've ever been in my life, I'm also the happiest.

For anyone else: This is your sign.


(I think the message here basically is Just Do It)

All the world's a stage.

I think one of the things I must try to overcome in this lifetime is to be able to sing in front of a crowd. Every time i think about this, I feel so coyote ugly. haha. except less hot and I can't swing around on bar tops.

speaking of chick flicks, I was watching Bring it On again because jess reminded me of Jesse Bradford and I was trying to remember why I thought he was so cute. then I saw it, its the smile man. I don't know what you call it but it's kind of like a half-smile. haha, very cute, can melt! plus, very few people can do the whole 'you know you love me' look and not be slightly annoying at the same time.

this whole feeling of stomach queasiness, head spinning, and the heart getting crushed like a metal can thing is getting all too familiar. actually, this feels kind of like a stagefright.

And i think maybe the band can play this! got some pretty cool guitar parts, just that maybe its not as high. but oh wells, I just like norah jones. dunch know why but I always go back to listening to her songs.

I tried not to believe
The scene that I could see
It felt like days passes by
Before I turned away
I felt a dizzy sway
And the gun in my hand
Stood before a judge

Save the trees, eat owls!

My brother's video response to me saying I feel like having chiiicken.





Watch more videos at KentuckyFriedCruelty.com.

I'd rather not eat then be vegetarian :S

Elisa - Dancing

Time is gonna take my mind
and carry it far away where I can fly
The depth of life will dim the temptation to live for you
If I were to be alone silence would rock my tears
'cause it's all about love and I know better
How life is a waving feather

So I put my arms around you around you
And I know that I'll be leaving soon

My eyes are on you they're on you
And you see that I can't stop shaking
No, I won't step back but I'll look down to hide from your eyes
'cause what I feel is so sweet and I'm scared that even my own breath
Oh could burst it if it were a bubble
And I'd better dream if I have to struggle

So I put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they're on you
And I hope that you won't hurt me

I'm dancing in the room as if I was in the woods with you
No need for anything but music
Music's the reason why I know time still exists
Time still exists
Time still exists
Time still exists

So I put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they're on you
And I hope that you won't hurt me
So I put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they're on you
And I hope that you won't hurt me

It's scary thinking at this time of the night. Everything is too clear, your thoughts manifest themselves so much faster than you can control. And there's nothing much to do at this ungodly hour to keep your mind off itself.
you still cannot sleep and the songs don't calm you down.
I think the sun is coming back up. Not fair, I'm not done with yesterday yet.

Laundry Day.

oh everyone watch Dr. Horrible! It' nice! oh well, I've only watched the first part but i think it's going to be reeeally funny. and sadd also ( I can see where the plot is going already and it's all set up for heartbreak!) But I could be biased because I just love eveything Joss Whedon produces. aww I think life should be lived and told in a form of a musical don't you think? sing and dance just makes everything so pweety(even heartbreak) and so much less boring. and somehow more truthful. oh I cant wait for the next 2 parts to load. it takes a while so i suggest you load all at the same time. Think I might cry at this ending. like how I cried for the last 5 chapters of the book im reading yesterday. I ended up so emo at 4am last night. I havent cried reading a book in a long while. But this one wasn't really that fantastic, it's just that the tragedy in the end was just so unexpected and so unfair. okay maybe that's the part where makes it a good book so yah...just ignore me lah. haha.

Michelle just pierced her belly today. this date is going down into history yah ;)
I think piercings just suit some people, like daph. but not me. I just too...happy to have so many piercings. okay fine too uncool to have so many piercings. Like my hair. i think this colour would be okay for some people, and some people think it looks okay on me too (my mum didn't even notice the difference!) but there are times that i just cannot take it. too loud i think. I just cannot stand that 2 blond streaks i've got. i know, horrifying right. sigh, sometimes it isnt so bad. But i think it's something I'm going to try to live with.

but yes watch the show. so far my favourite part is after he says "Oh sacarsm! How original!" Just look at his face after he said it. hahaha.

I'm just thinking, now who's going to sing sexyback with me at the top of our voices at 5am in the morning of rag day?

it won't be the same :(

Time to run.

Hall has barely started for the new semester and already I hear so much politics going round and I'm feeling like how I did nearing the exam period last sem. tired, annoyed, and sick to my stomach.

tango was funn!

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
' Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!

- If by Rudyard Kipling

yellow tops.

I've been taking cabs excessively these days, and somehow in all the times I take a cab, I enter this never ending conversation with the cab driver until I get off. I would like to think I'm a friendly, easy-to-talk-to-person but sometimes I just want to erm, stone. I'm quite amazed just I was able to carry on a conversation about hongkong serials which I know nuts with only a quarter of that 10% of my brain working . And every time I hope for that rounded down cab fare for providing such great entertainment that never ever happens.

I've been meaning to bake, but I dont even understand my own instructions copied from the website. Maybe I should try over the weekend, with professional family help around.

my head hurts so much my nose hurts.

Wimbly.


after last night/this morning match, I feel like I need to take a day off to go to the spa and mourn. From now on it's djokovic for me. heh but Federer's still the world number one after all this. whee.

Party In the Candy Mountain.

introduced to me by my cousins.
very annoying stuff and yet I can't stop smiling while watching these videos hurhur.

Ode to my feet.

blisters, bleeding and skin flapping everywhere. Now I understand what Monica from Friends meant when she said the reason why she couldn't return the shoes that she just bought was because the insides were filled with her blood. I was trying to put off bathing for as long as I could. I can't believe I have such lousy feet and even lousier shoes. I need a foot massage! and maybe go let the fish nibble at my feet until they really spoil and I can get new ones.

I'm le tired man! But yays to Federer into the finals. I love watching the little things during tennis games. how the linesmen have to duck the balls coming straight at them, how the ball pickers seem to run for their lives, the camera zooming in on the players' families and girlfriends so we can judge them, the players' clothes and accessories..etc. gives you something to laugh about.

I feel so out of the loop these days. And I am bothered about how much it bothers me despite as much as I try to not let it bother me. OH monday come quickly.

I like my apples cold, and usually I put them in the freezer for a while. and usually I forget about them. The last few times my dad threatens to throw them at me. this time, because we all feel the tendency to do something illegal once in a while, I threw it out of the window and god was that thud satisfyingly resounding. I just hope I didn't kill someone. I am not weird and everyone should try freezing apples sometimes.