positively somewhere

Wednesday, June 30, 2004

now my papers are almost finishing, i can only say i have only one thing to gain from all these. a bruised butt.
my gosh, the bloody horrible bench in LT3 is killing my butt. and i still have my econs and chinese paper to go through. what will become of my butt at the end of all these?

and the teachers just informed us our chinese a level oral will be on friday, right after all my papers. argh~

Sunday, June 27, 2004

yo, this would probably be THE last post before the exams. probably...

not supposed to be actually, but decided to post since I'm online looking for silly GP articles anywayz...talking about GP...haha. there's not one glimmer of hope that i will pass this.

We're all definitely all gonna die for this. Guess we're all not really in the exam mode this time. we should just embrace the fact that we shall fail. haha. 'right, maybe just for me. Those freaks in my class will surely pass with flying colours. what idiots. I bet at least kl and km will pass every subject with at least a C. My only comfort now is that getting 4Es will still entitle you to take 4a level subs.*says 'yay' sacarstically*

gotta go now ppl, i shall go get crazy over chemistry now. last minute dive. bye.

Saturday, June 26, 2004

woohoo!!! is this nice or what?! Muahahahaha...not bad for a computer idiot, huh?
hahaha...so happy...i could actually create sth like this!*oh, tear*

okay lets drag this so that you can admire my wonderful background properly...muahahahaha


if i could change i would
take back the pain i would
retrace every wrong move i made i would
if i could
stand up and take the blame i would
if i could take all the shame to the grave i would

sometimes i remember
the darkness of my past
bringing back these memories
i wish i didn't have
sometimes i think of letting go
and never looking back
and never moving forward so
there would never be a past

just washing it aside all of the helplessness inside
pretending i don't feel misplaced
is so much simpler than change

it's easier to run
replacing this pain with something numb
it's so much easier to go
than face all this pain here all alone

easier to run- linkin park

Friday, June 25, 2004

to prove my point...(an excuse to post more mike shinoda pictures!)



er, the one in pink is Anna, Mike's wife. center is Susan, Rob's girlfriend and the one in blue is Chester's wife, Samantha. She's pregnant, NOT fat!

Tuesday, June 22, 2004

nothing interesting in my life worth mentioning leh...

i seriously should be at the linkin park concert now!i swear i will find friends who are linkin park fans too by the time they come here again. if not i'll just kill myself.

in the meanwhile, im going mikeshinoda crazy...





Tuesday, June 15, 2004

eh i blog purely for my own entertainment, not yours kay...:P

fine, the past few days have been purely slack and play for moi. haha. since the day before my birthday...muahahahahaha.

(eh i too lazy to blog anything leh)

So i shall leave. haha. gotta go study now! like i said, i only work well under pressure which i am defnitely feeling it now. 'right, lets go!! (too bad, christin)
plus i probably wont be blogging for quite a while because it will be intense...hmm sad...

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

okay guys im super bored and you shall be able to tell...and since my birthday is comin up and all...

A Gemini

-is skilled at diplomacy and have an incredible ability to see both sides of every issue.
(totally agree! see, i HAVE talents)
-is easily persuaded by others and is sometimes accused of being wishy-washy
(soooo true...sth which has been bothering me)
-is the life of the party as he/she love to chatter away with anyone who wants to engage in an intelligent conversation.
(serious? i guess i can be if i actually bother to.usually im too lazy)
-is not only a gifted talker, he/she is also a gifted listener and love to ask questions with genuine interest.
(in other words, kaypo. and i cant deny im not.)
-combination of energy, intelligence and imagination make he/she great at multi-tasking.
(but not do well at both tasks)
-Very little ever troubles Gemini, or stop one talking for long
(eh! thats so me...and i lurrve it this way)
- Gemini can argue their way out of any situation.
(muahahaha. i consider this a skill only few can achieve.)
-is bright, witty and adaptable
(not for me to say...hmm...what say you? which brings us to the next point)
-Gemini individuals need constant feedback for the good of their souls.
(as you can tell...)
- 's mind does run to contradictions and when Gemini individuals go to such extremes, they manage to make their policy sound plausible (at least to their own satisfaction).
(hahaha...yeah...sure u ppl agree)
-Gemini natives are imaginative, generous and affectionate, but their frequent desire for change often makes them dissatisfied with existing conditions.
(yah loh...)
-Friends of those born under this influence of this Sign love the cheerfulness, quick wit and lively mind inherent in the Gemini make-up, but are often puzzled by the displays of withdrawal which are also a feature of this Zodiac Sign.
(soo...u ppl think so? see its not my fault, its in my nature)
-is popular and quick to acquire new skills but, as a result, is sometimes content with superficial knowledge and halfway results.
(YES! u have a prob with that?)
-The friendly attitude of such people may shift to mistrust if problems are encountered, and their keen foresight may suffer through over-enthusiasm, which could lead to allowing real opportunities to languish while they pursue something else.
(a sad thing, but so true)
-Gemini's reach for the perfect human relationship will probably mean that such an individual is constantly disappointed until he or she realizes that there truly is no such thing as a "perfect relationship."
(and again...sadly true)
-worst fault of a Gemini individual is to shirk responsibility.
(Muahahahahahaha...well, yeah...and i did not come up with this myself)
-The greatest Gemini talent is the effect this character has on others
(donno...you think?)
-It is also important for Gemini natives to curb the temptation to dissipate energy through having too many trivial interests and becoming disorganized...notes should be kept, lists should be composed and plans should be carefully laid. Unfortunately, this is often difficult for the mercurial-natured Gemini individual to accomplish.
(no wonder i havent been able to get anything done lately)
-like being part of a group
(who doesn't?)
-The importance of non-attachment is something a Gemini usually takes to heart.
(damn this is true...sigh*)

Okay ppl dun forget the importance of all these...MY BIRHTDAY!!!!muahahahahaha...
two more days...two more days...

Monday, June 07, 2004

okay i had been too caught up in recent happenings to talk about the dance concert. so i m back here to do just that. Basically my job in the control room was practically useless. I just stood there and took up oxygen and blocked lights. Cheers.

When i arrived, Elaine was scolding Vi about his costume. felt really bad for him.

Katerine and I watched the guest groups arrive one by one in the morning and gave our aid in their test runs. In the end, the effects dude wanted the groups themselves to send reps to go tell him what they required so i ended up just watching the groups perform and chatting with the sch av crew.

Ten minutes before the show and Zaki was already screaming at me to get someone (we get to hold walkie-talkies.Cool!)to get the rags that were sitting in front of the stage. The hell were those things doing there anyway? that was one minute of panic. haha.

everything went well after that, meaning everyone knew what they were doing so i dun have to remind or order anyone. so, poor me, nothing to do but watch the whole performance.*silent evil laughter*

The whole concert was spectacular!!! I'll go item by item. i dun care.
1)Enter_spacebar- this was our SYF piece. no offence but, how the hell did they get gold with that? But it was still good (just not gold SYF material). hate the costumes though. distracting.

( Halfway through some idiot tripped over the some wire backstage and our lighting effects were gone.poof.they managed to fix it later after much panicking. haha)

2)Liberation- this was by our very own people. I never thought it was great until that same morning the SAJC came and saw them practising and they exclaimed VERY NICE LEH!!! I couldnt help but beam proudly at our dancers.
*smiles idiotically*

3)Swirl (SAJC) - I thought THEIRS was great. was their SYF piece too. See, thats why i loved our concert. That night was like all the great dancers coming
together for the love and celebration of dance.

4a)Sueno Latino - our dance club again. watched them do it so many times i dun feel anything anymore. haha. but somehow the dance looked better during rehearsals without those costumes. Min dropped her skirt *gasp*. Max looked like he was trying to steal the show throughout though it was a couple thing. what's his problem?
4b)Salsa - My gosh this was terrible. this stupid external group don't even bother to come for rehearsals. and it turned up to be 2 old hags doing the salsa. im not saying they didn't dance well but their age made it look like a kopitiam beer auntie and an old drunk lecher dancing at a hungry ghost festival concert. (their costumes contributed largely too!)Its a JC concert ppl! who wants to see 2 old people dancing?!

5a)SpArX! - another by our alumni. it resembled soo much like cheerleading you can just take all the steps for next sports day. made me feel like bouncing up and down too. haha. Raz looked sooo absolutely good doing this piece. I was watching him all the time. sure, there was another guy, but he looked like Fantasia. Imagine...
5b)Breakdance(Fuyo) - their stunts weren't really good. I still think charles can do better. haha. but they brought out the little boy. never mind if his stunts were not well done, having a small kid breakdancing is enough to get the crowd to go wild. I would have cheered along with everyone, but i had to shut up. supposed to stay invisible, rem...

Intermission - I was supposed to get someone to bring the flowers from the control room to backstage. but guess what? I forgot. big surprise, huh.

6)Moulin Rouge - haha, the video was hilarious, abousolutely brilliant and totally suitable for this item. the costumes were, erm, scandalous. haha, but still, great moves. Vi doesn't look very convincing as his role as sort of womaniser here. haha, he look totally out of place. But Max, fit perfectly. Muahahahaha...

7)Passion(SRJC) - gosh they danced very well!! but hey, bad song choice. most noted by us for the dancers' looks (how'd they look so good?), their costumes and their hair.

8)ICC - I refuse to comment. When they came on, it was a chance for the audience to take a nap, talk to the person beside them or drink some water. however the audience could do nothing of those cos the horrible music was blasting.

9)Crazy Cool- we thought it was really bad comparatively. but it was the year one audience's only chance to cheer for their friends. So, cheer away.

10)Rumi(NUS)- this was definitely the best item of all. Hmm, men in skirts and much twirls. thumbs up!

11)Losen up!(RJC) - very very nice song by the black eyed peas. you can hear it now on radio! that newest song by BEP. But seems like they can't dance as well as they can study.

12)Fear - my 2nd favourite piece! Am beaming proudly once again. I thought Liping did great! Liz too! And of course once Raz came out i couldn't see anyone else. It WAS very messy down there on the stage, all i saw was just see a mass of red. Costume was weird.

End! - somebody didn't get her flowers cos it was still sitting quietly in one corner of the control room.oops...

Felt bad about calling that guy Fantasia. he turned out to be really nice!

"...if only i could remain in the world of dance..."

Sunday, June 06, 2004

That's IT! I've had enough. It's OVER. I'm not going to ever give a flying FUCK what she wants or what she thinks or whatever. I want as little to do with her as possible. I want her OUT OF MY LIFE!!!! STUPID BITCH.

Friday, June 04, 2004

"Everytime i feel alone, i can blame it on you and i do. you got me like a loaded gun, golden sun, and skies so blue..."

"It's gonna burn for me to say this, but it's comin from my heart. It's been a long time coming, but we done been fell apart... Really wanna work this out, but I don't think you're gonna change. I do. But you don't think it's best we go our separate ways. Tell me why I should stay in this relationship when I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby. Plus there's so many other things I gotta deal with. I think that you should let it burn..."

"Fumbling his confidence and wondering why the world has passed him by. Hoping that he’s meant for more than arguments. And failed attempts to fly, fly..."

"There's a prison with a window. It's the light begin. I wish you would let me feel the water until you swim..."

Tuesday, June 01, 2004

what is the world coming to? i just walked around compass point today and i met uncountable number of gay couples and transsexuals.you have no idea how disgusted i was. then at the interchange, i saw one butch which was soo cute. haha. She's a lot better looking than those guys. but seriously, is there anyone who is normal these days?

why is it raining so much now? like, what's the point? how am i supposed to get my tan now? Isnt june supposed to be the hottest month or sth? Agrhxx`

watching Titus and Daddy's girls today has motivated me to remain acting crazy and bimbo. Life's more fun this way...hahahaha.

hey just wanna know, does alicia or anyone else i know from secondary school ever comes here anymore? if so, identify yourselves!!