because of the connections (although indirect) that we share, I feel like I should take some responsibility in making you right. I can't tell them you're not perfect, because they think you are ( i still want to believe you are too). I want to protect you from the world, but you will not let anyone do anything for you. Everyone here wants to know you, we all want to help, but you're pushing everyone away.

I just don't wish to give up on you. Not just yet.
If only you'd let me in.

Living amongst so many girls is seriously scary. You'd never know if you're next.

This shall be my theme song!

Crazy People - The Wreckers

Only crazy people fall in love with me
They come from all over to be with me
Bank robbers, and killers
Drunks, and drug dealers
Only crazy people fall in love with me

He came from Caroline
on a west bound freight train
He didn't have no ticket
But he got here the same

He left a reminder
with nine months to go
Thats why I killed his wife
and wrecked up his home

Only crazy people fall in love with me
They come from all over to be with me
Bank robbers, and killers
Drunks, and drug dealers
Only crazy people fall in love with me

He fled mississippi
with me at his side
A trunk full of money
and no place to hide

Well he loved his whiskey
and his fist loved my face
So I buried that man
They won't find a trace

Only crazy people fall in love with me
They come from all over to be with me
Bank robbers, and killers
Drunks, and drug dealers
Only crazy people fall in love with me

Only crazy people fall in love
With me

hmmmm.....ermmm...ahhh...we'll take it one step a time lah. relaxxx...

no holding back now y'all!! this is the time!

How come everytime you come around,
My London, London bridge, wanna go down like,
London, London, London, wanna go down like,
London, London, London, we goin’ down like…

lalalalalalala

I'm high at 9 in the morning. that rarely happens.

i dedicate this post to samuel kwan. this stupid ass who pangseh me at the last minute. I could be shopping, I could be listening to my friends' band, I could be jet-skiing with my cousin whom i havent seen in more than 2 years. BUT i'm here in my hostel room, reading my readings, listening to wang lee hom on repeat in an attempt to irritate my neighbours, trying to put off cleaning my room, unable to find people to even go grocery shopping with me!!! argh.

I bet many of the guys would be having wet dreams after the dance finals last night.
(well, maybe not after the horseface. Addiction should have won! I thought i saw some japanese actress at zouk that night. she's so pretty!!! sigh- random rants, pls ignore if you don't understand.)

as for me, i had this horrible nightmare which I totally cant walk out of because i'm still stuck here in my room!(read: all samuel's fault!)where everybody's parents just poisoned their children, telling them that they will die in 24hrs, plainly because the singapore population is getting too large. So the next day, everyone's in school, irritated and flustered because we know we will die but no idea what to do with our last hours of life.( so drama right?) I remember trying to find him so I could tell him that I like him (because we were all going to die anyway and who cares what he thinks?). Then my parents took a bus to my school (which looks like an enlarged version of xinmin) and my mum happily told me that both my brother and me wouldn't die together, just one of us, whoever she wished to keep alive. (so mean lah!) Okay then I woke up.

you might as well just kill me now.

all's well.

I'm slowly integrating into Eusoff. A few more people know me. apparantly i mix well with mj people. sports people are not an entire different species after all. haha. still cant figure the seniors out. well, someday. everyone's nice anyways. once again, i've convinced everyone that i can't do sports at all (what did i tell you? whaaat did i tell you?! Hah! i warned you!)
school's fine. wah, the hell happened to my jc friends hur?! tsk tsk...why lidat...?! Not much better with my secondary school friends lah. everyone is so caught up with their own lives now (me included, i know).

I NEED to shop. i'm seriously running out of things to wear.

I think dichan choop khun handy. Dichan tham ?aray now?

tonight was...exciting.

First, if you guys heard someone scream very loudly around 10-11pm just now, that was me. The seniors from c4 thought it was very smart to go around the block scaring people with their halloween masks. hmm, then supper, which was relatively peaceful because me and Julia were trying to regain our nerves after all that scaring. Then c3 thought they should start shouting for me to go upstairs. A lot of people from other blocks must be wondering who 'meiyi' was. So i did watch piglet's big movie with them in the lounge (I sooo adore eyore!!!!) then i decided to go into kangwei's room to disturb her. i think she was under quite a lot of stress, so she started screaming at me for various reasons. Total overreaction, scared the shit out of me. I think all the seniors on her floor heard her.

so ya, here I am, at 3a.m., where things are finally quiet and still other than the flies who have gathered around my table light. And i can finally sleep. night!

the storms here are shit scary

Here, it's like living in 18th century Europe. It's unbearably hot in the summer, unbearably cold in the winter (well, here it's just non-rainy and rainy days). The thunder here are so loud, they make you jump from your sleep and keep you awake until the rain is done. I'm this close to crying here. My eyes are red (not from conjunctitives or whatever) from not sleeping the entire night.

(this is what happens when you have to keep reading about Sigmund Freud and Nietzsche)

(and don't we all just wanna feel smart by spewing out a couple of chim sounding names?)

I feel like running into someone's else's room with my blankie and bunking in. So i'd feel saf-er. But right now only my iTunes is keeping me company. Only sounds of Justin Timberlake and Madoona's dance tracks seem to reflect the storm outside.

And CHILL people, it's only the interblock games. Will you die if you lost?! Gosh, seriously!!