yay i just skipped my very first lecture of my life in nus! *applause* In my defence I would say that the lecture is very useless, telling us what we already know. The module is about plants and animals in Singapore anyway, I don't think there's much to lecture on that. And, it's over at the science faculty! damn far. Not worth squeezing on the bus early in the morning for.

Tutorials have started this week...t'was okay i guess. If you thought you'd never meet a china teacher in the arts fac, you're WRONG. And she'd just made me more confused about sociology, superb. southasia was fun...Thai was- fast. Thai's difficult! Oh no... oh, and Thai sounds like Hokkien! really. make me say a few words in Thai the next time you see me, you'd prolly think i'm just cursing someone in chim hokkien.

I feel like puking now. all thanks to breakfast. If you haven't already heard, I've decided to wake up for breakfast cos (jocelyn's reminder) we've already paid for it! It's quite expensive if I didn't remember wrongly. So everyone should wake up for breakfast and go for dinner! Skip lunch! Be cheapo! Be a true blue Singaporean! hahaz.

And my neighbours! The occupants of the entire row of rooms opposite me are in one pageant or another. Sports pageant, Arts pageant, Engine pageant. Gosh. Maybe I should move. Move to A block.

I'm missing Cairns all of a sudden. I just love the whole seaside-town feel of it. I love the tiny shops, tiny markets, tiny bars, tiny clubs, tiny restaurants. I miss their super fresh oysters. I miss the Great Barrier. Must go back there again someday!!

...haven't seen my eye candy in a while. you know how that feels...

The reason why I don't say hi to some people first is because I am not sure if the person remembers me at all.

(can you imagine how embarrassing it would be if the person has totally forgotten you...or worse, if the person doesnt really want to remember knowing you)

My volunteer services start tomorrow! how exciting. I AM going to be a better person! (I can hear my friends laughing)

It is soo depressing when we watched the rag video. past year videos showed us cheering, this year we're all crying. sigh sigh.

I should have thought it through before talking nonsense. Sorry guys. I will be more sensitive from now on. seriously.

okok i realise my recent posts have been quite depressing.

Me and Christin have come up with the conclusion that usually people tend to go with the flow around strangers and new aquaintances. so they don't act like who they really are. So, the more self-aware one is, the more he/she is unable to blend in. And therefore, it is more difficult to socialize! There you go! i mean, unless you're one super duper friendly person in the first place...then this doesnt apply. Haha, yay we can soo be future sociologists/psychologists!! Cheerios!
Anyways just be yourself...thats prolly the best advice i ever heard.

My driving instructor just told me I have no hand-leg( probably and brain) coordination. Some people are just so nice, don't you think?

I'm sick of my hair already. Need.new.hairstyle.now. I've always thought my hair was boring...but recently it has become unbearable. I don't understand how some people can get up in the morning with their hair in place. This is why i tend to avoid breakfast in the dining hall (because my hair is in a mess and no amount of water nor pulling can help put it back in place unless i took a shower, but more importantly because I can't wake up in time for breakfast anyway). I get up, check that the coast is clear, and make my routine morning dash to the toilet to avoid anyone seeing me. Then I'll always end up bumping into our dear PRC students in the toilet, but thank goodness i don't really bother about them. Ok i'm going to stop this bimbo ranting now.

I hate the way my parents fuss over me whenever i get home from hostel. I know they mean well but its really annoying. It's not like i was in another country, or like i havent been home in years. I hate to say this but they're really making me dread going home and want to just stay in hostel even during the weekends (if not for the constant phone calls). Everyone's suddenly so nice, it just feels weird, like its not my family anymore, and i have no idea how to react to them. thank goodness my brother is still enjoying being a pain in my ass.

anyways hostel life is much better than it was in the beginning. but still far from what i want. so, i gotta continue socialising hard. but i know i cant force such things, just that i'm not giving up yet. why do i feel like the more we know ourselves and are finally comfortable in our own skins, the harder it is to socialize with big groups of people? i used to be so-- malleable.

and school's pretty okay. its really slack i must say. I really have to get used to going to classes alone.

I hate Kent Ridge. And I hate the Rag Day Emcees.
I love my dancers.

The people who say they're only into genuine/lasting friendships talk the most shit.

I'm practising this new Open Door Policy, whereby I open my door... Share some love, share some music noise, share some wind. So i don't feel cut off, so I don't cut people off. okok, and cos i'm kaypo! It's working tho, people have been dropping my door for a short chat. And i'll always be pressured to keep my room neat enough to be seen.

wondering if my laundry's done yet...*whistles*

anyways, its pretty cool having iTunes here. It has this feature whereby it searches for computers near you which has iTunes as well, and people can share their music libraries. At one time you can get 3 or 4 people's playlists appearing and you wouldn't even know who they are. this randomness and mystery is all very- exciting.

our dear PRC students just cooked some shit in the kitchen and now it smells soo bad i can get even get a whiff of it in my room. Not that I'm saying that they can't cook, but cos they threw all the leftovers in the great big dustbin and those stuff are still rotting in there. real annoying.

ok thats all to ramble about for the moment. I'm so going to post everyday for the next week or so cos i really have nothing to do. Peeps please give me suggestions on what i can actually do around here.

I'm sure everyone's have had such occurances when there's this person whose eye you've been trying to catch, so you take note of dressing, hair, etc, when you think there's a chance you might see this person. BUT they never appear until the day u look like crap. The very one day when u decide to dress down, the day after a sleepless night, a bad hair day, a very tiring day and u look like you're going to die, and so on... haha.

So does that tell us to always put on the best front, or just dress shabbily everyday?

finally get this laptop running...quite normally, i hope.
Now let me tell you about my super-neighbour (just when i thot i'm safe in a single room). She's slim, tall, pretty, has a fridge and a TV in her room and wears zara around the hostel. And a cute boyfriend who came and helped her sweep her floor. hai...i can only sigh...some people just has everything. think i'll go use her fridge.

My room overlooks a grass patch and half of the laundry area of the next block. really not much of a view. Some dude practises bar-tending (not sure if thats what u call it, but it involves the juggling of glass bottles)everynight just under my window. It's more of annoying than anything else.

although my room overlooks nothing much, the entire B block can see into my room, and therefore my blinds are down all the time, making me seem very antisocial.

People here sleep at around 4am...very cool, but then again i hear activities going on as early as 8 am. these people don't sleep...

From the dining hall, I can see FASS. total appetite spoiler. And i havent even started school yet.

And bidding is the most ma-fan thing i ever had to do!

ok...going off to bathe now before I go force myself into socializing with people I don't really like and people who don't really like me. orientations can be soo long...