I did the math. I slept for about 26 hours during the weekend. subtracting the hours that I actually needed ( 8hrs for 2 nights, which is already an overstatement cause i only need 6hrs of sleep per night), I still have like, 10hrs of sleep extra! No wonder i'm so awake tonight, this morning, whatever. So stop lecturing me on being crazy and all and not sleeping. I have no complaints really, except for the nagging pain in my shoulder because of the jabs I had to take before going to Cambodia.

I think hall people have really learnt how to consolidate sleep. haha.

i'm waiting for wanyu and juls to come back so we can finally go get our dinner. haven't eaten any real food today! lets see, a sausage, one sushi and half a candy floss. just carnival food.

Selling flags has made me realise something about myself. the people who i think looks charatible enough for me to appraoch them for donations ALWAYS ignores me, whereas the people whom i think will never donate any money, gives coins to me voluntarily without me having to ask. this proves ONE thing: I have really bad character judgement. hahahaha. shucks.

i've concluded that you'd learn more stuff about people in hall way faster than if you'd gotten to know them from somewhere else. which is cool but it can get scary sometimes. it's a lot to process. (or maybe its just meeee being slowwww. haha)

wahaha cant wait for Halloween. i have this pending fear that i might really have to go through with mayyin's suggestion of us dressing up as packet mee. HAHA i know!!! She's kimchi flavour and I'm tom yum. errrr....and wanyu as ?? (she hasnt heard of our master plan yet). hahaha. so tat-glam!! i HATE the halloween poster with the black cat near the toilet. it scares the shit outta me. put one of the posters on audrey's door and im never stepping out of my room. not even to pee.

its weird (ok maybe not so much) but i love the post-it notes chings and hannah have pasted all over my door AND room. I may be complaining about it, but its heartwarming really. it makes me smile to myself like an idiot when i read it ALL. thnks ppl.

my dear qiu and sam, i was kidding.
I would never let myself go there.

ooh i hear ppl calling my name. yay, food!

im real tired. my back hurts. my throat hurts. i feel real sticky and gross. im sitting here, the only one left awake here at science faculty, watching the cleaners arrive for work. I WANT MY BED. My lappie's helping me stay awake by sending timely electric shocks into my wrists. my throat hurts. How am I going to last the rest of the day? I need to wash my hair. I need you to appear in front of me now. and did i mention that my throat is bloody killing me?! argh!
(you would be grumpy too if you have been sitting up all night with mosquitoes slowly draining the life out of you)

I think by this time the head of this expedition would have realised that I am not the person i claim to be at the interview. oops. too late for them. haha.

I have a lot of work to do and I miss my peeps in hall.

Aiyah basically i just need a nice long bath and some good sleep in an air-conditioned room. which basically translates to I NEED TO GO HOME =(
someone teleport me home now, now, NOW!!! Maybe I can do it myself if I concentrate hard enough...trying...trying...nah, still here.

pretty nice start of the day. I realised if we keep buying stuff for each other, we'd all be broke pretty quickly. And have enough food to last us for the entire month. But its not like i want it all to stop =).

I don't trust people easily. I keep thinking someone's going to spill all my secrets to everyone else as soon as I tell them. As soon as I confess my insecurities to someone. I think that's why I keep everyone at a certain distance. I think that's why I keep everyone at a distance away. no one will ever know what's really going on with me, i try to keep things trival. People might share some of their innermost thoughts with me, but i'll take sometime to do it back. but that's smth i am willing to give up ( even at this point of my life)so I can avoid disappointment, heartache, suspicion, whatever (i've had it happen). so I can pretend I don't need anyone.

Oh wells, i'm working on it. I can NEVER keep secrets for long anyway. mingle with me long enough and you'll know. (but seriously sometimes i have nothing to share, haha) I think everyone would want to tell someone everything eventually. because we all strive to be understood? and still be loved for whoever we really are? ya?

you know, even though I don't talk much about myself, some of my friends can still tell exactly how i'm feeling. NOW that's just freaky.

wahh i LOVE toys'R'us!!!!! it's, like, the most exciting place ever!!! I wanna go back to being a kid!! and french baquette is the best bread ever!

i have this sudden realisation that i might just lose contact with my jc friends once and for all. there weren't many people in our clique to begin with. what if we suddenly find that we have nothing to talk to each other about anymore?!! die!

I think I'm losing touch with reality.

I think maybe I should stop trying to get philosophical on life. I can't do it properly. And it's depressing. hahaz. back to bimbotic, simple details of life.

anyways, my tagboard has gone crazy on me. that bitch. And my printer ink just ran out.

An hour to the start of my day, and after all this, i can finally sleep! And then more stuff to do...damn. I hope I dont die halfway through lecture later, I already have no idea what's going on for european history.

I managed to mess up my room pretty bad within one day of cleaning it. I'm beginning to wonder why do i even bother. time to release the inner slob in me.

Something's going on... something I'm not so sure I want to happen. I pray this wouldn't go away...

Im really just talking about random, silly stuff because my mind cant work right now. The soci essay sucked big time, i won't be surprised to fail it.

yay, it's time to give shout-outs to people.
poor wanyu's still working on her essay paper. i can't believe she's skipping all her lessons again.
shall rmb to start calling chinghar chingy! like the rapper! hahaha
i miss Grace. when was my last long conversation/ chill-out session with her? she's always not here. hai~
hannah is scary, she can sense stuff. haha. and yes, clubbing night wld be fun to watch!
I wish i had more things to say to jx whenever i see her. It's weird how i clamp up.
and yay i still have a lot of ppl to talk abt but i've gotta prepare for class now. ciao!

I thought chings was talking crap when she said she cant blog with people around her, she needed to be alone. But i just realised how true that is. =x

We should all open our eyes (and hearts) a little bigger.
We should all stop playing games.
We should all stop trying to complicate things.
We should all know that we know nothing.
We should all realise that we're all different.
We should all realise that we're all the same.
We should all focus on the things we have, rather than the things we want (and maybe we'll all be a lot happier).
We should all stop pretending.
We should all stop trying to distort reality (it's not working).

Life's a bitch, we all know that. move on then. laugh it off.
Tomorrow's another day for new mistakes.

At this point, I'm thankful that I'm single. And that I'm forgetful. And that i'm finally able to laugh at my own follies. My life philosophy, nicely put by Wilde, 'Life's too important to be taken seriously'.

Maybe it's too soon to say this but I love all the new friends I've made here at Eusoff. And those I've yet to make. all 'cept a few bitches here and there who are just there for...I have no idea.

ahhh, my posts disappeared.
a lot of people are getting depressed here in hall. T'is the season to be breaking-up. bummer. I've been catching up on my sleep which i've been missing since...last thursday? It really seems like the more I sleep, the more tired I get (like how i think i'm going right straight back to bed after this). It has become kinda weird between me and my friend, cos the topics i'd wished to avoid are popping up all over the place now. And then I start thinking and getting suspicious. And then i'd never know if my suspicions are real cos i've been sleeping and not interacting (haha). ok maybe we'll see tonight or something. here, there's a thin line between being friends and being together.
Hmm I've never expected to be such good friends with so many people so quickly here in hall.
I'm forced to be open minded. I've never been surrounded by so many people who are not straight before. Doesn't help that the guys from first floor don't interact with us at all and guys from the fourth floor only come down once in a while to suan us. Not that i'm still being homophobic(clara's label for me), they're all super nice people (doesnt apply universally tho) but im just saying...
I think my life is the most emotionally stable than anyone i've EVER known. Nothing ever happens to me! Nothing! I've decided that I'm not going to complain and count my blessings and then use this to try and help around more (with all the breaking up and exam stress going around) so hence my nick! I feel like the person people write their troubles to in magazines and they give advice. hahaha...ok im flattering myself here. but I'm blabbering cos i cant wait to go back to sleep.