I've been having a lot of random thoughts today.

so firstly, I should really get myself a magic 8-ball so I can finally make some decisions. no really. I don't know why I haven't gotten one or why no one has thought about getting me one so far. I'm such a genius. I just have no idea where to get them. a little help please.

and yes, Coraline. the trailer freaked me out a little. but then i watched it for another 5 times after that. rather cool actually. don't watch if you're faint-hearted! (I am speaking to only ONE person here) but then again i cried THROUGHOUT (bloody hell I have never cried throughout an entire movie before) watching Freedom Writers so maybe my standards are a little...abnormal.
ah oh wells, it's animation, shouldn't be too creepy.


Oh it's a book! think i shall go read it first.
(wha suddenly so many ideas for christmas gifts. *AHEM)

so, me and jac were at the train station today. and somehow we got to talking about like how we're going to be working people soon. and i look around me and i see these hordes of bored, tired, lifeless, directionless working people (and its saturday). and i just got freaking scared that I would end up as just one of them. which i think i will in due time. like jac said; 'I want to enjoy what i do. but i think it gets hard after time'. so true. i feel like a little of a premature midlife crisis is going on here. yikes. i am going to sound like a bimbo here but probably the only thing that will entertain me through my working days is dressing up. think about it, you'd look forward to the day, and since you look better, you feel better, and THEN, you look even better. rocks la. and you ask why arts girls like to dress up for school?

Don't people like to wish that their lives could be better all the time? I have to say, I am one of them. But today, for some reason, I feel lucky and thankful that my life is the way it is now. i spend so much time thinking about how things could be better if this should or should not have happened to me. I dont stop and exit from the thoughts in my head to see what was going on RIGHT NOW and fully appreciate the things and people around me. that's my problem. but today, looking at the girls, i realise how much i heart them and YES, going all the way back to hall and then to bugis again to catch wanyu's ballet concert when she's only in one of the 12 items was totally worth it.

the little ballet girls were soooooooooo cute today, we were all giggling throughout their dances in their little tiaras and tutus. I am so sending my daughter to ballet.



I have to admit, I can't read you.
so tell me again.. if it's just a lie.

Everytime I hear the song 'hey mickey' I see this video in my head and i think its how it should be danced to. the mambo version is just so unsexy. haha.

Christmas (part II) - It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas.

So anyway, it was my first time caroling today so there's bound to be excitement all day long.

Christmas definitely started while on the bus some Malaysian guy in a nice suit asked me if I could tell him which bus stop to get off at to get to habourfront mrt. He looked so lost that I decided to invite him to sit with me and we chatted about his background and like why he's in Singapore and all during Christmas (to say actually I thought he was japanese, if not I wouldn't be so friendly. also because it is christmas eve). Apparently he's here for a job interview. Hope he gets it :) And I actually wished him merry christmas and even suggested he head down to orchard tonight for the singapore christmas experience. I pray that he loves crowds. haha.

it was kind of disappointing not making it to kbox today. But I wouldn't have fun knowing I'm paying $23.50 for 3hrs of singing anyway. so ming suggested a better alternative, bowling! (thank you thank you thank you) ah but one game seriously wasn't enough. I'm ready to go again any day! (HELLO YIN LETS GO BOWLING SOON)

But really I was touched that jess, tian and ming actually walked me all the way to the oriental and even hung around for a while ( stealing food, but, oh wells). then what was really unexpected was seeing kim and yin when we went back down to the lobby to sing! the guys started off the caroling and us girls standing behind, waiting for the next song. I was bloody tearing while I was standing there, seeing that my friends actually bother to make it. haha thanks guys! :))))))

And then also waiting for me for so long to have tau huay :))))))

Putting in effort pays off i tell ya. we died singing in the middle of the entire hotel for another 40minutes. BUT THE FREE FOOD WE DID IT FOR WAS DAMN AWESOME! ok so, the deal was, we sing a little bit more, and the chefs cook us something like beehoon or something. at first I felt like it wasn't really fair cause hello its such a posh hotel and you're giving us beehoon. But i managed to convince myself that maybe it was superior beehoon or something so it should be worth it. BUT, we ended up having free buffet at one of the restaurants. YESSS! And they set up new tables for us and everything. The warm wine with fruit was damn good ( I really LOVED the wine) and the food was superb. and the desserts, omg the desserts, was heaven. Now I know what death by chocolates mean, and it is seriously the best way to die.

and shayne, thanks man. stop being so bitchy towards me though.

Super cool party people.

I hate it when an emo, whiny post sits as the latest post because it's the first thing i see whenever I open to this page. major depressing. but I couldn't really find anything to blog about for so long...well, until now.

Christmas' been going on fine. in the company of those i love :)

in the past few days there's been a sudden influx of contact with people from my secondary school days. (xinmin the ah-beng school rocks la) And I just love it how we can still talk like we last met just yesterday. O how young and silly we were! Didn't matter, we still thought we were the coolest shit in town.

Spent the entire day with dear sam today. that boy is seriously rich eh. cedele's, then coffee club, then bakerzin. I think our plan to sit in all of the coffee places in town was rather successful. rather. I owe someone a gazillion dollars. then watched him carol. which made me dread my own caroling next week. it's so stupid, nobody listens, and angmoh kids running all over the place. but if you go out of tune, the entire hotel can hear you cause hotels are usually, well, dead quiet! yikes.

And dinner with the extended family on thurs went well. I'm seriously disappointed that we didn't get to bowl at all! But we caught National Treasure together so i guess it makes up for A LITTLE BIT of it. I miss the days of when we were younger and our parents would plan shit together like going to the zoo or those silly animal farms or having chalets, and movie outings. We kinda grew out of it after a while and the parents stopped planning these things for us because we complain so much about it. Plus, we always had our own plans with our friends and such. and the parents got old and they could no longer take late nights. But now, I kind of miss those days. not that I want to go back to visiting farms and amusement parks ( although actually i wouldn't mind that. haha.) but give us days that us kids can bitch about school and the parents bitch about work.

And I just want to go bowling.

We had a 5hr choir practice today. it was hell. but halfway through we had tangyuans. apparently today is some day where the chinese eat tangyuans. And it immediately reminded me of when I was back in Cambodia a year ago! Our dear programs head (who can cook) and logistics head (who can also cook) actually made tangyuans from scratch for the team. FROM SCRATCH. Like using flour for the outside and whole peanuts ( I took the chance to hold a peanut peeling contest!) for the filling. and we all helped roll the tangyuans, some of us attempting to make christmas trees and snowmans because it was so near christmas also. I can remember this specific scene where all 17 of us were all standing around the open air kitchen, telling jokes and talking crap as we rolled the tangyuans, one trying to be more creative than the other, and explaining the tradition to the locals who understood enough english. awww i'm almost tearing as i'm typing this! I miss cambodia and my entire team!

And I have a gift for all my dear mates in hall! I hope you guys like it. i swear it's super cute :)

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!
I leave you with my favourite christmas song at the moment.

IT'S BEGINNING TO LOOK A LOT LIKE CHRISTMAS :)



Pine cones and Holly Berries
Popcorn for you, apples for me
Red striped candy, nut cracker handy
Kettle a-bubbleing hot as can be.
snow clouds hang low and threatening
Maybe in won't, praying it may
the brightest fireplace glows in every face
Waiting for Christmas day.

There'll be walk-a-round songs and
talk-a-round songs
Songs of the inn and stable.
There'll be morning time songs and
evening time songs
And grace at every table.
And Jingle bells will jingle all the way all day.

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas
Everywhere you go;
There's a tree in the Grand Hotel,
One in the park as well
The sturdy kind that doesn't mind the snow.
It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas
soon the bells will start
And the thing that will make them ring
is the carol that you sing
Right within your heart.

let's see, my stomach's been HORRID since walas last night, I have found yet another bruise this morning which I probably got from dance but I have no recollection of how it got there, my entire body is aching, and I only slept 5 hours last night (no idea why the bloody hell my brain woke me up at 9 and I am WIDE AWAKE). I feel kinda crappy urgh.

nevertheless, I've got the craving for dim sum! which is odd cause I have been loading on crystal jade xiao long baos ever since exams ended. But I feel like having a dim sum brunch. at the toa payoh place (central, i think) my parents always brought us. shall suggest that to them again :) provided that i can wake up for brunch.


annnd, Walas reminds me of The Bronze in Buffy the Vampire Slayer. a very small version of it. very very small. and without the pool tables. I can hang here, oh I can hang heere.

I think everyone should watch Dogma. I just saw it online. the computer effects are just funny 'cause it's a film from 1999, but still, watch it. it's rather meaningful. I love their portrayal of God.

I think i should try to get back to sleep. can't go home in this state :(
night night everybody.

I think proof that the exams have finished is that NO ONE is blogging. well anyway, here i am. saturday morning ( I don't care if the time says 12.55. it IS morning), with 3 episodes of gossip girl loaded and plans of planning the christmas party with the extended family tonight :)))

I was very touched last night because my brother actually volunteered to cook me spaghetti at 10pm when i came home without having dinner and expecting only maggie mee. you have no idea how rare this is. hello? brothers cooking? MY BROTHER cooking? oh well he likes to cook but NEVER for the family. so yay :)))

I think i need to marry someone who likes to cook. doesn't have to cook well but the gesture in itself is enough! think it's the same for all the girls. me, i can't cook. i'd LIKE to, but i just can't. or maybe i can but i never tried to find out. cooking is such a hassle! maybe i should stick to baking. much more fun :)))

ok now that my mambo addiction has been fed (a little), my need for kbox is killing me. anyways, yes mambo last week was fun! not that the songs were good (urgh) but the company was very very entertaining(manbeer and ming! omg.) so i guess that makes up for it. :)))
but no, not satisfied. have to go back next week.

ahhhh shit. i have to get back to my gossip girl. the title of the show just has my name written all over it la seriously. okie byez!

All the world's a stage

seeing how it's going to be my only day of semi-quasi-almost freedom before flinging myself into the abyss of my notes once again, thought i'd post!

I have to say that thank god i'm taking same modules with so many people this semester. it really makes it so much more bearable. can't imagine what it would be like. no wait actually i can. it's called language and cognitive processes. it's the most disgusting module I have ever seen. I'd rather take a science module. no, never mind i take that back.

late night studying has been so eventful really. memories of numerous cups of coffee and essence of chicken, of complaints of hunger, of panic moments, of encouragement, of whining, of so many piles of notes everywhere that you have to swim to get to the door, of the new vending machine which is now my newest favouritest friend, of classical music (which is supposed to help you study/focus/relax better, not sleep better), of being surprised to see so many people awake with you at 4am, of michelle complaining about internet connection, of losing the ability of proper speech at 5am, of uncontrollable giggling at 6am, of seeing tingyi wake up at 7am, of being awake early enought to actually have breakfast. NONE OF WHICH I WANT TO EXPERIENCE AGAIN.

gosh, cant wait for the exams to end! I have too many shows waiting for me to go watch them. I imagine myself in my room all day and night watching episodes after episodes of everything. not having to leave the bed except to go move the mouse around when screensaver comes on. haha. omg heaven!

and people to meet up with! HAHA I remember coming across this saying that "you know you came from singapore when you are able to categorise your friends exactly into primary school friends, secondary school friends, jc friends, etc." so yea, I gotta go meet up with my secondary school friends, jc friends and... (shit the list ends there. dont I have more friends than that? hmm.) ermmm yea, watching shows alone in my room. haha.

and christmas! omg I'm going to have a helluva christmas this year because results comes out on the 26th. so yea, party hard before the end of the world people.




it's kind of old but I decided to put it up after seeing it on someone else's blog. I HAVE thought about the role i'm supposed to play in this world. I have decided that it's to entertain and make people happy. even if it means acting silly! ( yes believe it of not, ACTING. most of the time anyway) Guess i don't have much talent anywhere else. but oh wells, i heart playing this role anyways :)