what I meant when I said I am going insane.

i am finally done with my health psych essay. which was rather fun because we were explicitly instructed to 'write like you're a damn health professional' , and there's nothing i like more than acting pro.

I encountered several funny nonsense while researching for this essay.

firstly, a book whose title goes 'STRESS IN THE WORKPLACE'. very apt for my essay topic, but then i saw the next line in smaller print below it : '...and how to cause it' hahah! apparently it teaches employers on how to stress their workers out and maximise productivity. one of the idea was to: burst out laughing and say "that's a good one!" at a good idea presented at a meeting. it will undermine the confidence of already very good employees so they will not be complacent. the authors of the book are.how.evil.

and there's this article i found online which was talking about how successful and popular the theory is. the dude's exact words : "Get your favorite online search engine and type in the key terms “theory reasoned action” or “theory planned behavior” You’ll get so many hits you’ll think you’ve typed in some exotic slang term for sex." And talking about how the theory came about: "In the 1960s most college campuses were better known for riots, protests, teach-ins, free love, rock ‘n roll, and illegal substances, but in some departments some people were actually doing serious thinking." I obviously couldn't cite this.

I actually can't wait to start on my personality essay now. the topic promises 10 times the fun man!

I think psychology can be summed up in 4 words: biological, hereditary, environment, and personality. okay, so can i graduate nowww?

I think my family has officially gone crazy over studying. my brother is screaming at random people, i'm stoning and mumbling to myself, and my cousin giggling to herself as she plays Harvest moon. you should also check out her hair, damn explosive now. ahahaha so fun to watch people go crazy. like how i'm kind of looking forward to room bidding and the destruction it shall bring.

my dear c3 girls, we should MUST have one very last gathering, movie marathon, steamboat, SOMETHING before we move home and forget each other. haha. I have this idea to go around every block and take a photo of everyone (who has had an impact on me in any way, however small) in their respective rooms. BUTS, who has time to do something like that?

okay i think i should go take a nap. so the stupid kid at the downstairs playground had better stop crying in like 5 4 3 2

I don't know what to feel about you.

Complainte De La Butte



this song is currently on repeat on my itunes. it's my favourite song from the moulin rouge soundtrack. gives a very nice romantic and calming feel :) Here's what it means in English.

The moon, all too fair, in your russet-red hair sets a sparkling crown
The moon, all too red with glory, is spread on your poor, tattered gown
The moon, all too white, caresses the light in your world-weary eyes
Princess of the street, do allow me to greet you, my broken heart cries
The steps of Montmartre, all uphill, are hardest on the poor
The sails of the mill, like wings, shelter all paramours
I feel, beggar-girl, your fetters, they curl as they seek out my wrists
I feel your young breasts, your thin little waist
I lose my regrets
I taste on your mouth the feverish breath of a half-starving waif
And with your caress I sense drunkenness erasing my life
The steps of Montmartre, all uphill, are hardest on the poor
The sails of the mill, like wings, shelter all paramours
And see how she skips, the moon how she drifts,
The princess in tow
Da da da da da da da da da da
My reveries grow
The steps of Montmartre, all uphill, are hardest on the poor
The sails of the mill, like wings, shelter all paramours



*******
LE HORRORS!

I'm staring at my blue notice board like a deer caught in the headlights, unable to blink nor close my mouth. all of this because i have just realised the impending doom which i am headed straight for. assignments, tests, essays all nicely spaced out from this week right until the end of the final examinations on 8th may. I can only study for my finals during reading week it seems. And then I have 2 days to move out. yays. I won't even have the time to think about last days in hall and whatnots. ohmygosh so much studying to be done that I won't have time to think about any other thing. My social life and sanity will disintegrate right about now. like seriously. bleah. think zen, meiyi, think ZEN! ohmmmmmm.

When the world ends.

I just met up with a few of my secondary and jc friends after 219047874965923071 years. And I have to say, I'm glad we can still talk like any normal day, and laugh like crazy. as usual also. I remember jess was asking me how come me and my friends can don't see each other and not complain and still be considered as close friends. I HAVE NO IDEA man. I asked clara how we did it and she just said it was because we are super cool. haha. we're such idiots lah, we don't meet up, but when we do, we jack each other like mad. I think maybe there's something dysfunctional the way I handle my relationships with other people. But I hardly worry about losing the friends I hardly keep in contact with. but sometimes I need to get out of hall's social circle. I love my hall friends, but sometimes hall feels like a quicksand, sucking me in. It's just not healthy and somedays i feel like i'm not myself anymore. This is why I try to run home as often as I can. I need it to stay sane. sometimes i worry that after i leave hall, i will be forgotten by the people still staying there. I mean, look at the people staying different BLOCKS already. It's just different. But I think things should be fine la :) I look at julia's msn nick and yeah i agree, I'd miss everything about hall. heehee once in a while i get the I'll-go-to-the-ends-of-the-earth-for-you kind of feeling. and right now i'm totally feeling like that :) someone I know once said that there are friends you know you can keep for life, and there are friends who are just transient. I think I know pretty well which is which.

okay mushy shit aside, every weekend when I run home, my brother is my source of news from the outside world. Ahem, this week, we learn 2 things!

1) Gnomes DO exist!!

OMG. this is damn creepy. when my brother told me i was all like, aren't gnomes those cute small men with cute pointy hats, whats so scary about that? BUT wha this one is really some freaky shit. but hey, look on the bright side, we can all start believing in fairies again! there is a high chance they exist too! haha. if you dare not watch the video, at least read this article:

http://www.thesun.co.uk/sol/homepage/news/article902014.ece


2) Stingrays are very deadly.

it's a bird, i's a plane. No! it's a stingray! somewhere out there, this eagle ray flew out of the sea and onto a speedboat, hitting a woman on the head and erm, she died. I'm sorry i know this is a tragedy but I couldn't stop laughing when i finally believed my dear brother. i mean, just picture the scene, quite funny what. and the entire night while we were driving along changi, my brother kept warning me of how the flying stingray will come and get me, better check the skies.

also, the tv is my source of information. besides boring stuff like how ma ying jiu won the elections, I learnt how cheese was made, why polar bears are now eating humans, and why revisiting your past life might cure you! from the internet, I learnt that kaba modern is now out on america's best dance crew! omg!

okay enough nonsense for one day. i'm going clara's church tmr, surprise surprise. And i'd very probably see kangkang there also. yays excited :))

mornin' folks!

Just as I was saying something about happiness on van's blog and all, i think i might have found out what is the root of all happiness: SLEEP. I woke at 9 for tutorial but then i felt so anxious, almost hyperventilating and everything. That's when I decided that it's a horrendous way to start my day so i decided to force myself back to sleep. And now I feel all la la la like I can go run through c blk grass patch and sing the hills are alive. so, the lesson learnt here, is to just sleep la, heck everything else. haha!

and i think my laptop's taking after me, slow and not thinking at all.
Maybe it needs more sleep.

i don't think i need it (HAHA) but this book sounds like a fun read. or at least the reviews suggest that it's a fun read. ah buy me one buy me one!


there i was, 6am, still writing my essay, listening to everyone else's iTunes ( whose playlist is 'harder, faster, stronger, better' anyway?)when I came across this song which has got to be the most super duperest damn emo song I have heard. I googled for the lyrics for a bit and found the mtv. Then I found out it was one of the soundtracks for the most super super duper major emo movie i have ever watched. I have the series version with me, and i cried at the last 15 minutes of every episode, and then throughout the entire last episode. I just cannot describe to you how emo it is.

and i'm not going to translate the lyrics into english, because it will kill the lyrics really. But i just have to mention that stefanie sun looks horrid in this mtv. ha.

This weather is making me pee a lot.
and want to sleep a lot.
But all these papers and essays are really screwing with my sleep. I think I dream of more nonsense when I sleep then when I am awake studying.
it's 15mins before we leave for out silly stats test.
Once again, someone called me for some hall stuff when they really should be calling the other Meiyi.
I'm wondering what happened between us.
what in the world are we going to wear for Dnd?
ooh fireworks.
I'd really miss you.
that juno song is stuck in my head again.
i don't want to be reminded of juno,.
shoot, I haven't done my laundry.
why is it so damn cold. what's happening to the weather?
I wish I could really read minds.
5mins to stats!
yijun is facebooking.
maybe we weren't as close as I thought we were.
everyone's going to think I'm talking about someone else.
how come so many people read my blog anyway!
eh aiyah, I need to pee.

and why the hell hasn't it stopped raining yet!?

so, in times like these, we all need a little irrelevant nonsense to distract us.





Kabba Modern's da bomb! the girls are sho hot.



And I'd marry a guy who can dance like that.



there was this competition in London a while back to celebrate Micheal Jackson's Thriller me think. And this is what people came up with!


So apparently there's been rumors going about saying that ellen page is lesbian. and this is her reply to it all. I don't really get what's so funny though. it's just...interesting.




before I sleep, I'd better go compile a happy-wake-up-morning-songs playlist because I would surely need it for the coming days.

I know looking friendly and approachable is a good thing and all but if I get anymore people coming up to me to exchange life stories apart from selling whatever they're selling (eg insurance, coffee, health policies, what-nots), I might have to slap someone!

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Halfway during personality tutorial today, I decided that I'm ready to pack up all my hall stuff and move home next semester. ha, but knowing myself, I'd probably change my mind.

eh by the way, Jumper is such a hilarious show. go watch it when you're feeling lousy. Because you'd find that there's so much more to laugh about other people than yourself. This year's movie screening wasn't much of a social event. everyone just came, watched the show, and then left :(

also, I went on a shopping rampage at the psychology bazaar that day, and spent, a lot. but at least a bulk of it was on books. So yay now my hall room has some storybooks, makes me look smarter. One of it is about some exploding sheep and the end of world. haha, I can't wait to read. But it's not like I have not enough readings to get through. oh wells anyway, retail therapy works! I'm going to recommend this treatment to all my patients if I should become a psychologist in the future. Better than what crap hypnosis our tutor told us about that led to a patient thinking she is a duck and that she ate babies. Haha, not nice to screw with people's minds like that you know.

I remember wanyu and I were talking about how we love to talk to people wearing glasses after they've removed their contacts for the day. It's almost as if the person is comfortable enough with you to show you his true side, stripped of all pretenses (pretending to have perfect eyesight is still pretending). And that whatever he says is real and he's not judging you. And you'd feel safe enough to leave your own pretenses aside as well and be your true self without fear. Just lay back and hang out like it's home. It's nice :)

I can't believe I forgot how crazy c3 gets past 4am. Why waste your time sleeping when there's such great entertainment?? People in the outside world usually go crazy at around 12am, I mean, hence the radio show midnight madness right. So apparently Eusoff is 4hrs behind Singapore time, which is like living in...Mauritius. Anyway my point is that I'm going back to my nocturnal state.

And I think all my travel plans are falling apart. ALL. Japan included :(

I'd miss you more than I should.

Anyone knows what happened to the whole of last week? I don't think it ever happened. All I remember was monday morning at the hospital and the rest was a total blur. Must be the work of aliens that came out from my printer. (okay lame joke, but there was this once my printer printed an entire page of gibberish in the middle of other pages of my readings. I said aliens, wanyu told me it was just a programming error. )

My brother's teaching, or more like slave-driving me to make chocolate mousse. Then i found out you gotta go chill it in the fridge for one and a half hours. i feel so cheated :X In other family news, my brother just called my mum a humming-bird today. hahahaha. my entire family is just like a bunch of crazy people screaming names at each other. my mum screams at my dad, my dad screams at us, my brother screams at everyone, i just scream in a general direction. which makes everyone scream at me. haha, ah some nice sunday family time.




Only when I returned home and to civilization did I realise that feifei has passed away! I dont remember exactly watching her on any particular show but i always feel happy seeing her on tv. she's like how cute lah! Anyway, there's this televised memorial to her and OMG it's almost like the oscars! with the number of people making speeches one by one it'll be as looong as the oscars also! A funeral like this just shows that the person has made it in life lah. I hope mine will be like that. or at least make enough money for my children to pay passersby to fill up a theatre. but the bad thing was that they made her only daughter sit there through it all. if i was her, i would take the seat nearest to the bathroom. how to sit there all composed and makeup all nicely on throughout the whole thing!

On the bus home on friday, I've decided that my new resolution in life is to be nicer to people and pay more attention to them. the past week has just been too many cases of me not knowing what's going on with my friends despite living within 30m from them. (hey i did remember stuff that happened last week!) yes, we all make the mistake of neglecting our friends sometimes. But not when you see and talk to them everyday. I'm starting to think I never really bothered to find out more about my friends in the first place. okay, from tonight ons, I will!

I think I'd soon find out what people mean when they say that even when you're surrounded by people, you'd still be sad when the one face you wish to see isn't there in the crowd.