i guess the stress is really catching up on me these couple days. well, lets see, what do you can waking up in the middle of night, planning to mug but broke down instead?! haha, i was just staring at my chem stuff and suddenly i realised, i donno what to do! i mean like seriously i have no idea how to study anymore. i feel like...throwing everything out of the window. Maybe myself after it. haha.
haha, or at least that was how i felt at that time. now i know what clara means when she said she just felt stupid. i went to sleep, thinking that maybe my brain wasn't really working at 4 a.m. i woke up this morning, and still felt about the same. oh no!! what's happening to me?! okay people, maybe y'all will find me all withdrawn and quiet serious from now onwards. funny really, don't think you guys would notice anything since y'all ignore me all the time anyway. and my parents will think that i can handle it, as i had always proven in the past. i was supposed to be the smarter kid. at studies anyway, my bro's the streetsmart one. its like how i fell down in the toilet. it hurts like hell, but I didn't scream( slow reaction, as usual) so no one outside knew. but after a while it was okay so i didn't mention it to my parents really. hopefully this would end up well, with just another big painless bruise on my leg. see the link? it's supposed to be somewhat metaphorical. haha.

well, this weekend's pretty bad for me, i cried about 3 times already (different reasons, really), I've got 3 big bruises on me leg (if you see me, you'd think i was abused or sth), i fell in the toilet, i had a huge arguement with my dad. so i should really focus on the good stuff! a number of people have told me i look skinner! haha, and Gilmore Girls in on this evening!!!!! wouldn't miss that for the world.

see if i were really stressed out i wouldn't be blogging here now.

I have a vision of us in about 10 years' time: one of us ( xt/ Clara/ or both) would open a popular, chic chill-out pub of sorts and Clara would be the resident singer, the songs are jazz, the blues, sappy ballads, etc. haha. then the rest of us would go there everyday after work to chill (and complain). There is a private party. someone close returns from work/school overseas (most prolly Fad, i think) and everyone is all paired up and happy. clara says something fuuny on stage about the person who returns and later everyone's dancing with their partners slowly as she sings. (very Ally Mcbeal-like). I think except me. I see myself flirting with the cute bartender. haha!

yeah basically that's it. hopefully, xt doesn't open a karaoke bar instead. it seems quite possible.


My current 'stuck in the head' song. this song is really kinda old but i love it! really sad...i have a thing for sad songs.




Baby don't you break my heart slow
Vonda Shepard


I like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky

I was believing in you
Am I mistaken do you say,
Do you say what you mean
I want our love to last forever

But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

I like the way you'd hold me
Every night for so long baby
And I like the way you'd say my name
In the middle of the night
While you were sleeping

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken
Do you mean, mean what you say
When you say our love could last forever

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

(Bridge)
You would run around and lead me on forever
While I wait at home thinking that we're together
I wanted our love to last forever

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

SAJC dance society presents... Rapture!!!



Intermission equals photo-taking time!
when we all spotted Lee Wei Song walking around. and *someone actually went crazy about it.













okok, it was only after the intermission did I dare take out my cam to take pictures while they danced.

guest performance by NUS dance. funny why all their guest performers are abt the same as ours.













they actually had a dance piece performed by the teachers!! our school can never have this sort of thing...imagine Ms J dancing...or Mr Tong...beetsma...etc etc. you get the idea. their teachers are 'on' loh, not like ours who ran away when asked to do sth as simple as to go on stage to show off their ethnic costumes.









the concert ended with sajc's syf piece! really cool! da best!!

you can hear the tj dance group all cheering crazily for zaki at the end.

Heard there's a joint concert next year by tj, sa and vj dance next year at the Esplanade.
coolness...






end of the concert also means photo-taking time. these pictures are examples of how I don't look like myself sometimes.




why do i look so HUGE beside her?!!

















look at the head size ratio! lts like 2:1.
it's like she's the hobbit and i'm gandalf. HAHA.
















I look totally unSingaporean-ish!! and by my terms that is nothing but good. it's the leather jacket (i like...) ok i realised the sling bag is just wrong with the outfit but i dun have any suitable ones at all! (*hint)

Amir: hey you look like a celebrity!!
Me: really? I think so too!! who arh..?
Amir: Olinda.
Me: .................er, thanks.






ok, not so bad after all...note to self: take more pictures with liping next time.
















me and si rong!!! the size of her head is relative to mine. take more pictures with her too...
















people are fighting to take pictures with me cos they look small beside me. Luckily, I bent down a little just in time so it wasn't that bad. these people are evil...








everything didn't go that well anyway. I lost my earring!!!! it was my fave, the one i bought at nus. I am still devastated cos the other half is sitting on my table top. everytime i see it i start whining, ha. i dare not go near it.

why do i sound like a bimbo...

discovery of the day: my GP tutor is a pervert. if you need elaboration, come find me personally, its too long of a story. It's really gross to find out actually. how are you going to still respect a teacher after that?!

yay, i just found out that the sajc dance performance is this sat (already!). And we're all going to see it together! well, at least all the year twos whom i actually like. don't care much abt the year ones though. so exciting! haha, i havent been so excited abt anything since my birthday. i mean, the sa dance is really good, and everyone there is better looking than anyone here.I should bring my camera and everything. now, what to wear...

today is my first real p.e. lesson since the start of sch in july. feels kinda weird. I can't believe i've been sick so long! i am actually excited about today's lesson. haha, which made Louisa stare weirdly at me all throughout p.e. tired, yes, but i actually felt good after it. this is prolly the first and last time you're gonna hear this from me!!

it's so tiring hanging 'round someone so insecure.

looking thru my archives(again), i found this very funny quote:
procrastination is like masturbation, it fun while you're doing it, but you realise you are just f****ing yourself.

kinda makes me want to start mugging a little. just a tiny little bit.

I think open war might just be starting between the two camps in my class. ha. i think they might have overheard our constant bitching behind their backs.
And it's no lie what they really think about us although they are nice on the surface. It's about to get ugly, ppl.

people i'm serious when i say y'all should go check out this blog, whose link is also under my faves. It's PURE hollywood entertainment. and i can quite confirm he's gay. not that it's gonna matter anyway, just that he has a couple of gay links on his blog, haha.

serious advice needed.

How do you tell someone that you just don't want to talk to them in a nice way?

cos i have no idea how and i paid dearly today. enuff said, i don't want to be reminded.

Don't you just love the weather we've been having thses couple days? such days have a spell on me, I'm getting kinda euphoric. funny thing is i just told myself to start massive mugging from this weekend ons. But isnt this weather just perfect for snuggling under the covers with your partner? right, fine since i'm lacking of one, i shall just snuggle up against my wall. The air smells perfect if there's any smell there at all. i feel like taking my blanket with me downstairs to the playground and just sit there. And stone. Taking deep breaths, staring into the dark sky and those stars that i can't see(damn, why is s'pore so bright?!). This sorta weather makes you feel comfortable and at ease. Quite rare in Singapore, usually you just feel sweaty and disgusting. Anybody watched '3rd rock from the sun'? Someday i must have someplace where I can actually sit on the roof just outside my bedroom and there're no high rise buildings for miles and miles to block my view. And it's like the world is just me, myself and I. Pretty funky, don't you think? But then again I always wanted to live in a penthouse above everything else in the city. Guess it's the same in that I would have nothing blocking me and my view of the world. so i think that wraps it up: no matter where i end up living, i must have my own(big) piece of the sky! in other words i must leave Singapore or earn tons of money to buy a penthouse in Orchard.

My butt hurts because i'm suddenly brought back down to earth. Bummer.

so so...London won the bid...I must say I like both Paris and London so i wasn't really supporting any. of course there was Moscow but they were the first to get out. And, watching their video presentation made me go huh?. hey London in 2012, we'd be 25 years old, maybe we could go watch! hmm, donno. wow, London won by 4 votes only. cool. Hmm is it really great if you host the Olympics? they seem really really excited.

Taking a leaf out of my brother's book, I decided to dedicate one post to the going-ons of Hollywood stars.(My brother has an entire blog on such news. seriously i have never seen a guy who is a bigger bitch)

According to the JJB forums, the caption that goes with this picture is "Tuesday, June 28, 2005. Mariah Carey goes to dinner with some friends at Koi in Los Angeles, CA and later on poses with a homeless man in a wheelchair who didn't want to be photographed. She used him for attention and left without even giving him a handshake or money." Look at the face of the poor dude...oh wait...where's he staring...?




Nah, Paris is NOT pregnant. Some wind puffed up her skirt at that second. Erm, she IS engaged though. to a guy also called Paris. he's some heir to a shipping tucoon or something, i forgot. well, just someone as rich as her.






EEEk!
oei people this is britney spears in case no one regonises.



















nicole richie recently...haha. rem? she's paris's best friend(not any more) on Simple Life. Apparantly she's been living the simple life out on her own. put her on a poster for the famine camp or sth.









tsk. tsk. how can? ok initially there were reports of her being pregnant. but now confirmed not true. boo-hoo.











Tom Cruise was supposedly caught in bed with Rob Thomas (the lead singer of Matchbox 20) by Rob Thomas's wife, Marisol. Rob Thomas is also a Scientologist. Obviously, nobody wanted this to get out, and Marisol was going nuts threatening to expose them.
er, ok, gay or not, he's old, stubby and ugly! am i the only one seeing this?














credits:
www.hollywoodrag.com
www.simplyskindeep.com
www.thesuperficial.com

if you're wondering where have all the cute guys have gone, i'd say ikea!

well, i've always suspected but when i went to ikea today, my thoughts were confirmed! haha, seriously, maybe guys just look better around furniture with their family. they all look pretty decent too. besides, you can be sure that these guys would be quite well-to-do and have relatively good taste. better than those bengs you find on the side of the streets of orchard!

so now you all know where to go for some eye candy! well, if u disagree, the food and shopping there are a big enough attraction already.

ok, despite a major headache and an aching throat, me here to finally post up the pictures.

10th June 2005

rediscovering childhood on 18th birthday.

xiting, pony, me!

see them now!

see how excited clara is over food.

we couldn't find the real seals!

short trip to China at the Singapore zoo

reach for the...er...vines.

we look like a couple. eww..

I look better posing with pepsi cups.

The rhino

Clara's attempt at artistic photography.


Little ang moh girl at the playpool. this is blogger background material!

look at that sick expression on clara's face.

if only we brought swimsuits or extra clothes.



9th June 2005

Fish & co. at The glass house. the service sucks big time.

alicia, heli, belinda, kimyuan, christopher, watson, michelle, qiuyan, me

Me and bralinda before the waitress spilt drinks on us.

eerrrr....hmm

watson is built tall for one reason.

ah qiu and ah li

why did ali duck?!

kim looks good in this pic.

next stop to clark quay! heli, alicia, me, belinda, qiuyan...michelle is missing!

whose long legs?! who else?

*puke*

do I know this guy?